November 12, 2012

  • had a dream about robert and i found his place in iowa city. he was with a roommate named robbie who was a different person that i had started to consider the idea of dating. robbie did not have a face. he represented future loves. i hung out with robert all afternoon and day and i edited him to be good robert. when robert is good, he is happy and he is not cynical or saying mean things or bringing me down or arguing with me or doing that weird brooding thing where he is silent and kind of scary and you don't know what is on his mind and you don't want to. we had fun and he had his dry humor going and i wanted to fuck really bad and i wanted him to give me head because he is the only one who can and he said we can't because robbie is in the other room. and robbie had no face.