January 29, 2013

  • I am such a drama queen and it has been worse and worse of late. Unfortunately my regular schedule started so I cannot be a little cat adventurer anymore. However, it is shocking to have some normalcy introduced into my life. It is calming me and forcing me back to focus. I must focus for I need to finish my work before summer. It is not that daunting of a process, however, I am keen on ignoring it and have not been pursuing my work with vigor. You must understand that it is frightening for me to finish my novel. Nothing is more frightening than that for I have no idea how I will market it. I am not necessarily a terrible advertiser but I am new to the idea. I am uninterested in fame or anything of the sort but I do need money. I think I can get it published if I'm smart about it. I have had many many opportunities to promote my novel by word of mouth which I have not necessarily done a great job of doing. I need to: 
    A. have more faith in my work (it is quite great, anyway)
    B. Not be embarrassed about myself as a human

    Anyway I am reading "Cloud Atlas" which is a big inspiration because it is HORRIBLE. It is not intelligently written, nor does it have any kind of fascinating style that I can bite into, nor does it have captivating characters and it is horrendously long. I have no idea what I am going to do with it when I'm done but I really feel like ripping it apart page by page. I really feel bad that I don't like it because I read the afterword by the author and he doesn't seem like a bad guy. But what an awful book! Jesus christ.
    I think my cat is pissed at me for taking so long to get to cuddle time. I'm sorry steffi. In the meantime I have to figure out what to eat tonight. I really want to eat my leftovers from the night before. I am so hungry! And god it was so good. Elyse I love your cooking.
    I've in the meantime kind of drawn a blank on what to cook in the future. I have just been making things up as I go along. It's so rewarding and it just makes me ravenous to think about.
    BBL GOTTA GET FOOD