February 26, 2013

  • I have to tell my brain to stop thinking so much because it gets really bad sometimes. Lately it has been worse than normal. Staying up all night because I can't help it and I just try to force myself to go to bed and nothing happens. I am a bum who can't accomplish anything. That's what I say to myself. He took me and carved into me and now I have to go through a second healing process. Why can't things just be normal for five seconds? Why did I let a fox into my house to come and play tricks on me? I made an effort and I made it a bigger effort and more and more I am being punished for the time that I decided I'd open up my heart. I shouldn't have done it when my insides were tender. I gave money I didn't have at a time when I should've kept it to myself. That's what it felt like.